Back again. Need to write it out, you (might) know how that goes.
People Person:
It's funny. Half the time I'm largely a people person. The other half of the time, I hate everyone. But that's not really true. I love people. I always have. They fascinate me. Everyone does in some way or another. But I'll be damned if I want to deal with them all the time.
I am not capable of dealing with people on a constant basis. I've tried. Believe me, I've tried. I just can't. After a while, I snap. Well, not really snap it's more of a shut down. I need to recharge and reboot before I can deal with people again. Not just large amounts, but small amounts of people too. I just need time to sit down, not think, and not interact in any detailed manner with anyone.
Every now and again, I need time where the most human interaction I have is with the lady in the checkout line, reading posts online that other people that I don't particularly know have made, and utilizing human made goods. Thats it. I don't care who you are, honest to god no matter how much I love you, but you need to shut the hell up and leave me alone.
Yes it's rude. Yes, you probably will feel like I'm being short tempered with everyone around me. It's probably true. But just give me a day or two of space. Time when you leave me to my own devices, and I'll be back at fully functioning capacity in no time. I really am a social creature, just one that needs a break and time to recharge.
For the last month or two or three I've been going nonstop with people who constantly demand my attention for one reason or another. And my patience is wearing thin. Yes, you can be just as loud today as you were a month and a half ago. But today, I'll be damned if you aren't driving me insane and practically begging me to punch you, whereas last month I may have laughed.
It's not you. It's me. But please people, know when it's time to just shut the hell up and leave someone alone. The demands can stop for a day or two. I have yet to fully recover from the demands of having three large family gatherings in a row. I love my family to death, but I'll be damned if it isn't a zoo when we're all together.
