Fencing Chronicles:
I did it. Well, we did it. I'm entirely thrilled. Like, super thrilled. I shouldn't be this happy about someones downfall, but dammit, I am. We beat them. Team Awesome suffered it's first loss, and I helped!
I was partnered with Nathan tonight (Dayna was working on a paper) and we beat Brian and Bill. I'm still a bit bubbly about it. Ok, more than a bit. I'm thoroughly enjoying this. I stabbed and dodged, I came out victorious! I have gloating rights forever mostly because I've given them to myself.
I think I needed the victory. For myself. Not just because I've been hoping someone would knock their ego's down a bit since the beginning. Sure that part was amusing, but the rush of knowing I could do it was worth far more.
I needed to know I could do it. I needed to know that I could hold my own. I needed to know that I'm not just wasting my time, that I'm not just the newbie fodder I've been working as for what feels like forever. That I'm worth a halfway decent bout. I know it sounds ridiculous, trust me, I know. But I needed it anyway. I'm tired of fencing only newbies. I'm tired of being written off.
I'm tired of so many things. So I'm doing something about it. I'm winning. It's cool. Of course, I ended up in a coughing fit for the next 30 minutes, but I won. Dammit, I won. Ignore me now.
Quote of the Day:
"You have to recognize when the right place and the right time fuse and take advantage of that opportunity. There are plenty of opportunities out there. You can't sit back and wait."
- Ellen Metcalf
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