Sounds Like A Personal Problem To Me (35 of 90)

Here's Saturday's post. Apologies for the lateness, that social life thing snuck up on me.

Continued thoughts:

So yesterday I talked about friends, and it was a little angrier sounding than I intended. But I do suppose I'm a bit more bitter about all of this than I intend to be. It's just that shit like this has happened to me far to often for my liking. And by 'shit like this' I mean that transition where people you know become people you knew.

It's terrible. Sure it happens to everyone at some point in time, but across the span of my admittedly short life, it's happened far to often for my liking. So you'll have to understand that every time it happens, I have a tendency to be a little resigned and bitter about it. It's turned into an expected outcome for many of my friendships now, that they end that is. I've come to accept that people come and go, which is probably a good lesson.

But a friend of mine told me once that that's kind of a shitty outlook. I believe him. It's a terrible outlook on people, and I'm working at trying to fix that. So I apologize if I appear blunt, unapproachable, or unwilling to fully open up, or anything like that at first (and 'at first' can stretch on for a long time in my world). It's probably not that I don't like you, it's more like if you don't survive my trial period I'm entirely reluctant to let you in too far.

You can only get stabbed in the nipple so many times before you wise up and start wearing that chest plate, you know?