Ranting

And here it goes again.

It's been a week:

Just a week. I've been out of school for a week, and it already feels like a month. A week ago I was mildly excited to be free for the summer. Now, a week has gone by, and I"m almost ready to go back. I'm at the point where I'm a few boredom filled days away from saying I'd rather be fighting some article for J280 again, rather than sitting at my kitchen table staring at the piranha swimming into the sides of his tank for the billionth time.

I'm tired of being here already. Now, this isn't a sad lonely "wah my high school friends kinda sucked, I hate fishers, I'm so lonely" type post. This is a I'm starting to feel the boredom post. This is a I'm tired of cleaning up my siblings messes, carting them around like a taxi cab, and generally having nothing to do type post. Of note: I'm also tired of the stench my brother seems to radiate. Ten year old boys are so gross.

But at the same time. I'm not ready to go back. I don't want to be responsible. I don't wanna have to be all adult like in a year or so. I don't wanna have assignments to do. I don't wanna do the school thing. I'd honestly settle for the early semester gig. The part where you're not doing much, the projects haven't piled up yet, and generally you have more free time than you should. That part would be cool. There's still a bit of work to be done, but mostly it's just goofing off. But then theres the knowledge of mid semester work, and that sucks, so I'd almost rather be here, sitting at my table staring at dumb ass fish.

I'm supposed to be helping work with my dads website right now. But I don't feel like it. Which is bad, because I'm hoping to get paid for all this, so I need to be earning my keep. But every time I start working on it, I remember exactly why I've never been a CS or graphics kid, even though I have an innate interest in it all. the work is boring as fuck. I can only take so much copy/paste and the like. It's killing me a little bit (not really, but more than an hour of it is of severe detriment to my work ethic). I've always liked the outcome of all the work, and the process for most of it. But damn if I don't get bored actually doing the work.

Which is why I'm sitting here typing out this blog instead of copy pasting my ass off so that I can get new shoes (I'm still aiming for finishing this summer with some fly ass shit). I need to be copy pasting. But I figure blogging is a better way to not do work than playing Torchlight again. And god knows, If I weren't blogging and talking to people on facebook, I'd be slaying some zombies and skeletons with my bad ass (mostly bad) Torchlight skills.

Quote of the Day:

"The sweat of hard work is not to be displayed. It is much more graceful to appear favored by the gods."
- Maxine Hong Kingston