Bitching

Alright. Here's last nights post. It's late for a very good reason, I swear.

Oh Dear:

So, it's crunch time. Obviously. I've only been bitching for about a week or two. And I don't know if I'm going to make it through. This next week is going to be hell. Not because of any one class, but because there's stuff do in almost all of them.

And the hell part? Well that's entirely my fault.

I wish I could bitch and moan like some of my counterparts. And I don't just mean the regular bitching and moaning, everyone bitches. It's just what we do. But there's a specific type. I'm not entirely sure how to explain it. But it goes a little something like this. I bitch and moan not because of what I have to do, or when it's due, but because I can. It's not bitching for the sake of anything, it's just bitching for the sake of bitching. Complaining because I can and because other people complain. It's a shared bitchiness. It really only comes out in group settings. I don't bitch to myself about what I have to do, I bitch to others because it's sort of a stress relief. Maybe. Or something like that.

I don't believe I have the right to bitch with a purpose. It's not like the demands made of me are unfair. I've known about the deadlines for a semester now. It's no ones fault but my own that I have so much work to do now. If I were smarter, or at least less of a procrastinator, then I'd have started things long ago. But I'm me, and I procrastinate. This is my fault, and my burden. I'm well aware of that.

But for others it can be different. The bitching is really expressed in a way that at times leads me to believe that they don't think they had anything to do with the situation they're in. And it's weird. I've never liked that kind of bitching. I've always found it annoying. I'm not sure if I'm explaining the differences properly, or if I'm being a hypocrite about all this. I probably am. But the point still stands. If you're going to bitch, make sure you know what your fault in the matter is before hand. Don't bitch bitch about something that's 90% your fault, you know?

Quote of the Day:

"Though I am not naturally honest, I am so sometimes by chance."
- William Shakespeare