I have to do what now?:
Alright. This is going to come off a bit complain-ey. I'm sorry. It's just that well, I feel overwhelmed, you know? And maybe it'll feel better once I get all of these thoughts out of my head. I hope it does. Because I wanna quit it all and be a hobo right now. And hobo's don't have constant Internet access so it's not really an option.
Now, you might be asking "But Lauren! Why are you so overwhelmed? I thought life was grand?" But hell, you can be overwhelmed and all grand like at once. I think the grand bit adds to everything being so overwhelming.
The truth is. I have a lot to do. Or at least I feel like I do. Maybe I'm complaining about nothing. In the long run, I probably am. But for now, it feels like I have a lot to manage to do in not a lot of time. Today I had to go to an early morning meeting. Or I'd literally fail one of my classes. Had to go to one in the afternoon for the same reason. So that was extra stuff on my plate that's not normally there.
I also had a paper due for class today. I finished it last night. I forgot to print it off this morning because I was reading through stories for another class. But at least my professor is understanding, I get to turn it in Wednesday thank God. I had just enough time between class and the second meeting to eat lunch. After wasting an hour of my life in the meeting, I had to run off to the library to do a project for yet another class. A design project. It's not so bad except for the fact that my knowledge of Indesign and Photoshop is quite basic. So I have grand ideas and no physical ability to put it on the page. Luckily Bill came and found me of his own free will. He helped me put the last poster together. It would have taken me infinitely longer if I was left to my own devices.
I took about an hour break afterwards. I needed it. I couldn't have kept going at that pace all day without passing out accidentally. And then back to the grind. Wrote the paper for news that I'm not actually sure when it's due. It's either tomorrow or next week. Therefore it's written today.
I've got four critiques to write up for Wednesday. So once this post is done, I'll be going back to working on those. After those are done, I'm not sure what's up next. Either work for Brad, or studying for the test I have in Media Law.
And that's just assignments. I've got other side things that also need to be done for class or there's a massive chance for failure. It's ridiculous really. How much piles up so quickly. I want a break. I want to lay down and sleep. I want it all to go away so I can play games in peace. But it's not going anywhere. It just keeps piling up as new things come onto the schedule. And the more that piles up the less I want to do.
But I suppose I have to start somewhere or I'll drown in it all. So for now, I'll work on these critiques. And when they're done, I'll start on something else. I don't think I'll finish them tonight. I know I won't. I'm too tired. But I want the basics at least filled out. So that I only have to type them up. It's a start. Sometimes, it's hard to see the forest for the trees. And right now all these trees are fuckin redwoods. But the goal is closer than ever. So close. That's why it's so hard now. And as long as I can keep the end in sight I can keep going. Keep on reading and writing. But these damn trees keep getting in the way.
Somebody get me an axe.
Quote of the Day:
"Everyday I'm hustlin."
- Kat Williams
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